transgressings | inbox for duplicity;

i'll do that next time I see him

the furniture not so much
the fact that someone may know how to make them is more surprising
though Grayson is old enough
he could probably draw them a design???
or maybe they have some in books at the library
still havent bothered to check what's there after the horrid poetry display
who needs to make a tower of porn disguised as poetry in the shape of a cock for Valentines Day
honestly

He does have a good memory for that sort of detail, but I wouldn't be surprised if such things are easy to procure here depending on whether you know where to look.

Most of the books are of a certain nature, though I believe other LIERs have tried to recreate their real versions from memory.

suppose he'd be the one to know
seems his thing

ive done that
recreated something I remember
Dorian and I were working on an anthology of our favorite poems
and i
made a copy of his book
HIS copy of his book
not with Oscars note in the front of it
though I got that actual copy from the trees last christmas.....
I mean to say I copied it down
from memory
had it bound so it cant fade with time
guess ive got that to keep me company now

A bit more his thing than mine, but I won't begrudge him his pleasures.

There are the occasional gifts the city chooses to bestow. Ironic, that the powers that be likely don't think too much about the significance of a book to any one person, even if it can be as treasured as something with a substantial monetary worth attached to it.

heh thats why I asked the trees for it
figured it couldnt hurt.
and he liked the copy I made him so if it didn't show up it wouldnt really matter
but then......
there it was
Exactly as we remembered it
threw us both for a loop but.
grateful it happened
even if its just for me

Beyond the memories we have of them, these small artifacts can prove very valuable indeed. It's why I've made an effort to keep any personal effects that my Dorian left behind. The things that didn't vanish along with him that, is.

city did take a few things
well two

did he
have his portrait with him too?
your Dorian

He did. He finally showed it to me just before he disappeared.

fuck
that's a mood
but a deep sign of trust
and love

much as I hate that asshole portrait
I'm glad you got to see it
it's important for those who love him to know more deeply

I know how much it took for him to even make mention of it to me, let alone reveal it.

It's a gift that I still refuse to take for granted.

doubt anyone who truly loves him
would ever do that
I may hate it
but I know what it took for him to show me the first time
Its his deepest secret.
letting someone in is
it's a lot
every damn time

It never fails to be difficult, does it? But that makes it all the more meaningful when someone can finally be their most vulnerable self with you.

your wiser than most
I know youve not got the years I do to know how true that is
But it is
that's how I knew it was something more for us
even with all the times wed had together
All the sex and love and fights and joy
seeing his portrait
REALLY seeing all of him for the first time
its when I knew it was true

You're not the first to have pointed that out, but I think sometimes experience can give us the knowledge that age is also capable of bestowing.

My only regret is that he disappeared shortly after granting me such a privilege. On the other hand, I never failed to let him know how dear he was to me, and I believed he knew it to be true within himself.

i agree
lived long enough to see it in a fair few
But its pretty rare
mortals aren't very good at it when given the chance

that's really all you can want with Dorian
and if he ever gave you that smile
The one you know is just for you.
after you told him your feelings?
Im sure he knew
gonna guess thats a common trait for them too

I suppose I had it before the turning, as those who knew me then can attest to, but I won't claim I never made mistakes either.

I'd never told him that I loved him at home, but we did offer the words to each other here. More had changed about our circumstances than when we first knew one another.

no one avoids all mistakes in life
Ive made plenty in mine
both as a boy and a monster
it's part of living
same as hurting people we love

thats a common theme here
we've all got new challenges to face
Some of us being marked and the whole ""owning"" each other thing
but we are free to ignore parts of the past
if were willing to look past it.
and focus on what we've got now

Life certainly isn't all about making mistakes. Or hurting others.

But you're right. Perhaps, to some extent, this is an opportunity to move forward in whatever way we choose to next.

it's not
but those are what define us most
other than those we love

if theres anything this place is good for
its opportunities for actually new things
mostly people but
There are still some exceptions
several very unexpected
as you well know from your own experience.
doubt you figured you'd be a vampire at any point in your life

...though I could be wrong???
i dunno people surprise me sometimes

I suppose. I try not to weigh one's mistakes against them, knowing how difficult it's been to surmount my own errors in the past.

I didn't expect it to be something that would transpire for me, no. Especially since the last vampire who attempted to turn me would have done it without my full consent.

thats probably wise
then again
Ive seen people get fucked for less when it comes to noticing that shit
always good to keep mistakes in mind

yeah that's
not so uncommon
too many are good at getting half consent at best
speaking from experience there
its shit
glad at least one of us round here got to pick it

I know I'm more fortunate in that regard. Not everyone who has been turned here has been afforded that same privilege.

[ she doesn't name names, though, not sure if she can disclose kyle's unique situation on his behalf. ]

I'm sorry your experience was not better.

don't be sorry
I killed him
my sire
he fucked with me after I came back from the dead
worse is he fucked with Dorian
Or tried to
so I ended him for it

I hope he forever rots in Hell

Well, I am sorry it came to that for you, but I won't begrudge you any feelings you might have had about needing to take those measures.

I'm not
he abandoned me the night after turning me and teaching me to hunt
Left me alone for near 300 years
him coming back into my life was narcissistic and self-serving
AND he tried to rip me away from Dorian
if he was still alive
I'd kill him again
¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[Forever a very sore point for him. He's petty enough to keep this grudge for the rest of his immortal life even when he knows Ivor's well and truly dead.]

inbox for duplicity;

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

cw: mentions of murder

no subject

no subject

(no subject)

(no subject)

(no subject)

(no subject)

(no subject)

(no subject)

(no subject)

(no subject)

(no subject)

(no subject)